Losing weight in spite of myself.

I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.



The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.

The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.

There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.

Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!







Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Chicken Cordon Bleu

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Oh my! Catherine is a wonderful cook and last night she made a 7 point Chicken Cordon Bleu to die for. I didn't get too much last night though!  Instead, I acted in a thoroughly naturally thin fashion--yea!  There's hope yet.  Immediately after work (5:00) I had an eye appointment (5:15) and then visiting teaching (5:30) and then relief society meeting (6:30) and then I was hoping to maybe get some Aruba shopping in.  I had asked C to make dinner--so after visiting teaching at 6:20 I thought I ought to at least stop home and acknowledge the work and make sure it was put away.  I'm glad I did!  She was actually in the process of putting it away.  But I was hungry and had no idea when I could sit to a proper meal.  So I grabbed a little plate and put on a little piece of chicken and watermelon just to hold me over--and ate that while I was taking out my contacts. Turns out that C was supposed to come to RS after all--so we bolted out the door just a little late.  Naturally, RS had dessert---I had to weigh whether their dessert was better than C's banana bread.  Yes, but only because I knew the banana bread would be there tomorrow.  We split a dessert and went shopping.  Great time shopping! Everything fit--it wasn't a smaller size, so I wasn't surprised that it fit, but everything does look nicer. Picked up Dave at 8:30 and wasn't particuarly hungry so didn't worry about more food, instead just packed a nice big breast for lunch today.   Since I was so good yesterday, I couldn't help but get on the scale today (after all, who knows what horrors it might reveal on Friday--better get on while the getting's good).  193
BRAVO!  That ties my record low from my last bout with WW. The difference is that I don't feel at all inclined to quit this time, whereas last time I was barely hanging on and hating every minute.   Eating the extra points everyday is really helping.

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