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195---ok. Guess I'll take that. Didn't some guy once win Biggest Loser with that weight? Must carry on! Boy is it easy to fall off the wagon! Today's challenge is just plain being tired. Catherine is at youth conference, so I got up at 5 and did her paper route. I am NOT a morning person. Straight from the route I went to SLC. Did quite a bit of work at her house and went to see her. She's looking much much better. I also had a nice talk with Lisa about funeral plans and so on if the worst happens. There are at least a few things in place so I feel better on that score too. I've been wanting street tacos for about a week and after coming back the plan was to grab a few tacos, then take a nap. mmmmmmm. My habit is to get just the meat and load up with the pico de gallo because I don't really like corn tortillas unless they're baked into chips and I knew I had a bag of my own oven baked chips to go with the tacos. Before this weight loss venture--four of those would leave me barely satisfied. Today three looked like a huge amount (it was, I think she was overly generous with the meat). I over ate. I was tired and looking forward to the meal. I had unlimited chips and I also had at least two servings of cheddar cheese with the chips. And once again I need to learn that cheating does not make life easier--it makes it MUCH harder. I liked not counting those chips and having cheese far too much. Now I want to munch on muffins and chocolate and all kinds of other things. I'm at least not doing that. Dave is out shopping and I'm going to clean my own poor house while he's doing it. I didn't nap very well so I'm out of sorts and grumpy--it will be good to get the work done and be done and then snooze gently on the couch while watching Dr. Who.
Losing weight in spite of myself.
I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
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