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I am BUSHED. After a busy morning preparing for trip stuff--God bless Dave, he got the swamp cooler working, we went to SLC and did some very good work at my mom's house. Dave got the upstairs bathroom working. Me and Catherine moved her bed upstairs. Everything is clean---or as clean as it gets at mom's house. There's just a point where things become so old and awful that they simply can't be cleaned. Mom reached that point about 10 years ago and it's discouraging. It's just too much for her. I think from here on out I will try to make it down at least once a week to help out. After Moms we went to Dad's to drop off a Father's day card--he wanted to go out to dinner--and we had planned to go to Thaifoon at the Gateway for Catherine's 18 1/2 birthday. So we arranged to meet at 6. Went to visit Mom---doing great thank goodness. Then to the gateway --lots of fun! It was the sidewalk chalk festival and there were some amazing chalk paintings. Browsed the stores--me and C found terrific jackets on sale at Christopher and Banks for only 11 dollars! Normally over 50. Dave found a gorgeous suit jacket for only $7 at Old Navy. I took my Nook to Barnes and Noble and got a little coaching on it. Then we went to dinner. I didn't count points today, but breakfast and lunch were right on. Dinner was Thai food. Surely over points, but I ate what I wanted and was pleased that I didn't particularly want to gorge. Catherine ordered the coconut shrimp. I ate one of hers--she's lucky it was only one. It was fabulous. Next time I want the coconut shrimp. It is truly bad for you--but wow. All I can say is that there has been far too little deep fried food since I joined weight watchers. (Oh, okay, really I pretty much gave it up long before ww--but they are a nice place to dump the blame.) Did a little more browsing after dinner, stopped back at Dad's (depressing) because Christine had some presents for C and Dave. Stopped by Coldstones to pick up ice-cream cupcakes which is what Dave wanted for tomorrow's Fathers Day/birthday. Came home, ate the cake I made for C yesterday with some first rate ice-cream(ben and jerry's). Wrapped some presents, played a song or two on the harp. Cleaned up the kitchen a bit, took a shower and I'm ready to drop.
Losing weight in spite of myself.
I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
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