Losing weight in spite of myself.

I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.



The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.

The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.

There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.

Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!







Tuesday, January 20, 2015

Pretty good weekend

I've got to be careful of those "doing great" posts. Apparently they usually mean that a crash is right around the corner. But even still, things aren't too bad. This past weekend was Martin Luther King day. Meaning days off and a Catherine visit--usually a recipe for disaster, but I was okay overall! Saturday was the worst. It was a vegetarian day, which usually isn't a problem, but all I wanted to do on Saturday was to eat meat. I didn't go out of my way to pig out during the day, but in the evening, we dropped C off at the train station and continued on to go to Crystal Hot Springs stopping for dinner along the way. It was a diner, and I suppose I could have made a good choice, but I was hungry and just plain didn't want to.  I ordered biscuits with sausage gravy, scrambled eggs and hashbrowns.

BUT--I got right back on the wagon. I didn't have a problem sticking to the calorie count on Sunday, but I did yesterday. The difference was probably the soup. We ate the last of it on Sunday. I made the mexican version of it yesterday, but it wasn't finished during the day when I was hungry. I had a bowl with dinner and it really helped.

I don't know why I'm so afraid of being hungry. You'd think I had a starved childhood or something. Far from it. Anyway, today is "Walnut Day" and I brought along some soup just in case.

I'm still struggling with exercise, although Dave and I did walk on both Sat and Sun. The struggle is a lame excuse. I CAN walk and BIKE and do the wii and do upper body stuff with the kettlebells, I've just been lazy.

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