Carrying on and doing fine. I'll try to do better writing down the food because it helps me to see it. Today I'm a little freaked out because I had a flavor point and a hungry girl day back to back and today is 1500 cal??? YIKES!!! Part of me is yelling, YOU CAN'T DO IT!!! YOU'RE GOING TO STAAAAARVE!!!. Ummm, yes I can do it. And it won't even be that hard. For breakfast I had a slice of healthy bread (100 cal and I like it), with chocolate peanut butter powder stuff. It's not as good as PB2, but good enough and I really got a lot for 50 cal. I also had some milk, some juice and a cherry poptart. Total---450 cal. Lunch will be at Subways, and I have a Jamican stew in the crock pot waiting for me at home for dinner. It's going to be okay even though I haven't earned any exercise calories. I feel good too, I don't know if I've lost any actual weight, but I've lost the Christmas bloat and that feels wonderful.
Thanks again Hollie for pointing out that I'm already a success. It's much easier to build on success than it is to dig yourself out of a hole.
Yesterday: A hungry girl day
Breakfast--mega fruit and yogurt bowl--about a cup of blueberries, 2/3 c plain yogurt, splenda, 1/4 c fiber one cereal and 12 almonds. Really filling.
Lunch--a ginormous salad with chicken and oil and balsamic vinegar dressing. A slice of bread with I can't believe it's not butter.
Snack: 3 big pappadew peppers stuffed with feta cheese with balsamic vinegar.
Dinner: Miracle noodles (zero cal) with melted laughing cow cheese and light sourcream, with a big helping of chicken and green beans.
Dessert: a cashew coconut qwest bar and diet hot chocolate with whipped cream.
So---hardly starving, but those days do take some planning and cooking.
Losing weight in spite of myself.
I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
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