Weird not to be struggling today. It's a 1500 cal day which usually freaks me out, but they're not that bad! I'm comfortable with 1800--but even on those days I usually EAT about 1500-1600 cal of real food and the rest is dessert. So all a 1500 cal day means is skip dessert. Not a big deal. Still, it's nice that today feels easy. It was one of those times when I felt that I had loads of calories to play with. A big help is the zero point soup and also the free butternut squash.
I'm using the WW freebies with caution. I'm counting fruit. Veggies, I'm not worrying about too much especially on lite 1500 cal days. Other days I might count it.
Overall, I'm feeling really good. Physically and emotionally too. I feel as if I'm doing good work in the eat right world without going too crazy. Yesterday was 1700 I think. I reserved 700 for the RS "lite dinner." They served waffles--worse, with nutella. I was delighted. I LOVE nutella. They also served big bowls of fruit. I figured one waffle was no problem. I really wanted another--that would have been a problem. I compromised and got another 1/2. Besides the nutella, I loaded it up with blackberries and blueberries. Still, it was a calorie dense meal, but I'm not too worried about it. It was a good effort.
Right now, I'm in the happy place of needing to eat some spaghetti. I had cream of wheat with blueberries for breakfast, and then I misread my schedule, so I ate my "snack" of a big serving of zero point asian soup, now it's nearly 2 and technically, I haven't had lunch. So, I'll eat spaghetti, and maybe the butternut squash and banana, but certainly the melba toast (I love melba toast) and laughing cow cheese. I made Korean beef barbecue last night. With all that I still have plenty of room to get some ice-cream after we go to the temple tonight. Nice.
Losing weight in spite of myself.
I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
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