Losing weight in spite of myself.

I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.



The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.

The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.

There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.

Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!







Sunday, September 14, 2014

Sunday

Weekends are weird to post. Its actually much easier at work. Anyway---today, Sunday I had,

Breakfast
1 pancake, sugar free syrup
fruit
milk

Snack:
Fruit Snacks

Lunch:
Buttermilk salad with grated cucumber, 2 slices "garlic" bread leftover from friday, 2 slices salami, 1 slice cheese.

Snack: one full rectangle graham cracker. 1 plum picked from tree

Dinner:  Makeover Italian Chicken--reasonable portion, but heavy on the delicious sauce, reasonable serving of pasta, green beans fresh from Tammy's garden, homemade applesauce.

Dessert: Warm chocolate melting cake. Recipe makes 10 sm. ramekins each at 131 cal. I make 4--so it's a heavy dessert.

Exercise: Slow walk of the 5K while reading.

I don't actually regret any of this---but it would have been better if I could have done without the slice of cheese, had either less pasta (or the magic zero cal noodles--but those are expensive), less sauce (but I love that sauce!) and had 1/2 the melting cake.  There are two more ramekins of cake. Tomorrow, I will have 1/2 of one for dessert.

Good choices were to walk, I drank lots of water, esp after the walk and the plum. The challenge tomorrow is that it's my long day. No exercise and lots of boredom. I'm trying the raw sweet potatoes my instructor suggested. I'll bring those to munch on plus the 100 cal popcorn.

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