Breakfast: Jimmy Dean breakfast muffin, sm. banana, 1/2 glass milk.
Snack: 3/4 sleeve nuts
Lunch: Polenta with spaghetti, 1/2 pretzel roll, 8 or 9 olives
Snack: Snickers pumpkin (170 cal)
Snack: 1 cookie---a mistake---that snack made me hungry
Snack after walking home: about an oz of salami and 1/2 oz of cheese
Dinner: 1/2 wise guy calzone, 1 slice sourdough bread w icb and cheese, cabbage salad w feta and olives
Dessert: choc milk and 2 cookies.
Exercise: walk to work
The good the bad: As usual, breakfast is fine. I was also proud of myself for not automatically finishing off the nuts. I realized I was done with that flavor (lime and chili, my fav!). Lunch was ok and the snickers was planned. Then things went downhill. It was a BORING day at work. I should have eaten the apple and string cheese, or the 100 cal popcorn. But I didn't want the popcorn because I knew I might make some tonight. The apple and cheese was....? I think I knew I wasn't really hungry but that I was bored, so I didn't want to eat because of that. An apple takes some eating, whereas a little cookie just sort of slides in without really "eating." Also, I think the cookie actually had fewer calories than the apple and cheese, but still, my body would have metabolized the healthy snack better. Next time I'll try and eat the apple. The snack after walking home would have been ok, if dinner hadn't been so heavy. I think I really did need some protein, I took the long way home because I needed to stop at smiths.
Dinner was a problem. Friday pizza is the day I have most often relaxed on a diet. But I'm not on a diet. The error wasn't so much the food, as that early on in looking at it, I realized I'd probably be just fine if I only ate 1/2 of it. But salad is an awkward thing--I hate eating leftover salad, and this one was especially good. I've never left part of a calzone on my plate. Is that even a possible thing to do? What if I had eaten 3/4 and the other 1/4 wasn't enough to warrant saving? Then I would be MISSING OUT!!!! Or so I think--or rather feel, is more accurate. What's to miss out? There is no calzone for me today. Whether I'd eaten it all, or eaten enough and thrown out, the result is the same. The only way to have calzone today is to have listened early on and saved it. I think I didn't do that, because usually I'm "back on track" on Saturday and wouldn't normally want a calzone around to throw me off.
Such baby-ish simple things that undo me!!!!
Losing weight in spite of myself.
I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
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