Losing weight in spite of myself.

I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.

The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.

The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.

There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.

Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!

Thursday, October 9, 2014

No low fat for skinny people

I'm really liking this book!!! Whether the principles are true, or I'm just being brainwashed doesn't matter---there are changes for the better coming.

Of course first, I had to detour to the Pizza buffet. Dave wanted to go to support a fundraiser. I don't know if it was the book, or that I'm coming down with something, or that this buffet simply isn't as good as Cici's, but I found it VERY unsatisfying. I had a salad drowned in blue cheese dressing. Why do I think that's ok behavior? Especially when the dressing is mediocre? Then I had carbs, carbs and more carbs. And I didn't like it!! WEIRD!!! At one point I actually went back to the buffet and felt as if there wasn't any food there. Because in a way, there wasn't.

I'm also challenging my "auto amounts"--my phrase. I've been practicing eating smaller portions with the idea that I can have more in an hour if I want it. So far, I've been just as satisfied (at least physically) with one roll as with two.

Today, I asked my kettlebell class (full of skinny people) if they ate low-fat foods. 100% NO!!! They eat less of the real thing--and they can, because the real thing is more filling AND doesn't trigger more hunger signals. More than one told me that if I wanted sugar to go ahead and eat sugar---at least your body knows how to deal with that.

This is going to be a change. I just had Dave buy some lite Eggo Waffles and some toaster strudels, before I read the book. I figure as I eat through the stuff at home, I will slowly replace it with better things.  Again, I don't know if this is real or I'm just being psyched out---but I bought two boxes of lite crumble bars. I had one after lunch and I really do think it's making me hungrier!

Also to try----eating off of a red plate. Someone in my class said that red signals stop, and that people ate 25 to 30 % less when they ate off of a red plate.

Hey, whatever it takes.

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