WOW!!! I wasn't perfect yesterday---but I did make some good choices and I wasn't exhausted for my night class. I definitely need to write down my food and how I feel and see about some connections. Let's see what I remember about yesterday.
Breakfast--1 slice of Ezekiel bread (good stuff!), with organic peanut butter (which is about the only weird organic thing at home), blueberries with Splenda and milk.
Snack--some nuts, yam sticks
Lunch--one slice of steak pizza with pan crust (I love the pan crust at Papa Murphy's), cabbage salad with blue cheese and olives. 3 or 4 giradeli mini's.
Can't remember if I had any snacks between lunch and dinner.
Dinner, a turkey burger patty with mustard, a big serving of zuchinni fritters (homemade, baked not fried) and plain yogurt to dip them in. Caffeine free diet coke.
Snack at class. Some gummy penguins.
Felt GREAT. Teacher brought pizza to class, but I had just eaten and wasn't really interested, so I skipped it! I skipped pizza!!
Today, I had an awesome breakfast. Turns out those Eggo waffles that Dave bought are multi-grain, low sugar,perfectly fine to eat items!! 2 are 140 cal. I had two waffles, spread one thinly with Nutella, chopped up a banana, to put on that, topped it with the other waffle and sprayed lite whipped cream on top. Had it with milk and oj. Am not only full, but CONTENT. So much so that when I limped over to the new bakery (I'm having major knee issues and am a little out of commission just now), I didn't feel like buying anything---even though I've been craving dense chocolate chip cookies. It looks like a great little place and they serve soups and sandwiches too. I'm sure I'll be a frequent customer.
I don't know if I'm losing or gaining weight and I actually don't care much!! I feel good physically (except the knee) and at peace with food. THATS a new feeling. I'm just basking in the feeling.
Losing weight in spite of myself.
I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
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