Losing weight in spite of myself.

I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.



The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.

The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.

There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.

Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!







Saturday, September 15, 2012

545 Better

Yesterday I did well. I don't know about perfect, but well. I tried hard to listen to my hunger at dinner even though we went out for a free burrito (HUGE). I tried hard to listen today too. One struggle which I hope will ease up, is that I seem to go from full to ravenous in an instant. Today I ate a very good breakfast--walked 6 miles with a friend to prep for the marathon. Then wasn't very hungry at all--so I thought I'd sew till Dave came home. He came home almost immediately and began to fix a brunch for himself. After watching him cook for 1/2 hour, I began to be a little hungry and thought it just as well to have a little something since it was a normal lunch time. I had a fresh tomato, a thin bagel with broiled cheese and a few crackers and cheeseball. After eating, I wanted food much more than when I had begun, but I could tell I wasn't really hungry, so I stopped and took a nap. Later, we went shopping and I wisely ate a muffin for a snack. Did just fine till smack in the middle of the grocery store--STARVED!! I did the best I could with the pizza tonight--but really, I wish getting hungry was more of a gradual thing.

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