Losing weight in spite of myself.

I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.



The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.

The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.

There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.

Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!







Friday, June 15, 2012

441 Protien

Good thing I weighed yesterday--185 today--which is still fine. I've reversed going the wrong direction before it became really serious and I'm heading back down with determination. I think today's weigh would have been better if I hadn't eaten so darn late. It's tough--with Dave's late teaching schedule, I often eat earlier which I don't like to do, but I don't like eating at 8 p.m. either! Yesterday though I mowed the lawn first. I also need to be sure I'm having something every three hours or so (that's the wisdom from many other bloggers who are successful), it had better just be a few veggies or something--I don't want to add even more times during the day when I'm triggered to eat. Anyway--we had soy meat for the spaghetti last night. Not bad, not great. I accidentally cooked it in the microwave--not just thawed it, and then fried it up. Dave thinks it might be better if we cook it fresh. I think it'll taste the same regardless--like cheap school lunch meat. Once in a while I won't mind. Today apparently my body wants PROTEIN. I had two hard boiled eggs for breakfast--something I never never have. And for lunch, even though I was dead tired yesterday, I fried up some chicken and am having a wrap with chicken, creamcheese, green onions, jalapenos and salsa. I had no choice about the chicken--my body was demanding protien. OK!!! Tonight I'll have calories for a full 1/2 of a DiGorno's pizza--and since I didn't have milk with breakfast, I'll have cookies and milk for dessert. Tomorrow will be tough--we're going to SLC to take Dad out for father's day and I don't know where we're going. I'll just do my best--what else can I do? Father's day itself shouldn't be too bad--Dave wants steak and potatoes. I think I'll just make that day a "simply filling" day and then keep plowing on with 1800. Thank goodness I lost some this week. I needed the encouragement.
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