Losing weight in spite of myself.

I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.



The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.

The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.

There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.

Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!







Tuesday, June 5, 2012

431 chicken

Feeling better about things today. I ate well yesterday--walked to and from work and did some gardening, and tracked my points. I even made a ton of chocolate chip cookies for Relief Society and only ate the two I counted. I did dip a little into the cookie dough--but not too much! Today is also on track, but I'm feeling a little suspicious about it because I've really eaten well so I think I can't possibly be ok--but I am--and hooray for food! Breakfast was 2 slices of bacon, an omlete with a laughing cow cheese and veggies, a thin slice of artesian bread and butter, 1/2 cup of milk and blueberries. It felt good. Snack was carrots--which was totally unsatisfying, but I knew I had a good lunch coming. Lunch was pineapple chicken, 1/2 cup couscous, carrots (probably could have planned the veggie better--didn't even think about it), an egg roll and 1 chocolate chip cookie. Dinner will be tacos--3 if we still have hard shells, one if we dont, 1/2 cup beans, a cabbage salad, watermelon and another cookie. A satisfying day. I ought to work out the calories on all this and see what it comes to. Sometimes I feel as though I get more on ww and sometimes it would be better to count calories. Hungry Girl has a chicken bacon avacado burger---it's only 380 calories--but that is 10 ww points!!!! I'm only supposed to be eating 26 points a day!! (I'm going with 29 pts which is what they told me when they started this new program). I know, I know, the rest of the calories are supposed to come from free fruits and veggies---but still!!! How does anyone save any points to use later in the week?? Based on that burger a full 30 points would only be 1140 calories! No wonder I'm always hungry. But...on the other hand---today's offering seem quite plentiful and I do like being able to eat fruits and veggies freely. Still---if I counted everything I could almost eat fruits and veggies freely--they have very low calorie totals after all.
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