Losing weight in spite of myself.

I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.

The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.

The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.

There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.

Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

439 escaping floats

Not bad not bad!! Yesterday's breakfast of artesian bread and cheese and fruit held me pretty well and I enjoyed my fattening lunch and wasn't too hungry by dinner time. The mushrooms were great. I went to Relief Society and they served up huge rootbeer floats. I like floats, but they're not a big favorite to die for dessert. I left and went over to Sis. Mead's house to say hi. Good choice on both fronts. I did get up early and walked a brisk 5K with Dave. Even so--I'm nervous that the scale won't tell me good things because being hungry or dissatisfied always seems to be a pre-requisite to weight loss. So now I'm paranoid---am I really eating 1800? Am I miscalculating? But regardless of what the scale tells me Friday I'm going to press on with this until July 4. I'm enjoying it, I'm making good choices overall and even the bad choices are restrained. Mostly, I'm just pleased that this is so much easier that the last time I tried 1800 cal. Today's menu is: Breakfast stawberries, milk thin bagel with laughing cow cheese Snack Banana with chocolate PB2 Lunch, Tortilla wrap applesauce olives a Reeses peanutbutter egg!!! YAY!! Dinner a burger king bacon burger (not the whoppers) pretzels apple That leaves a few calories if I want something after coming back from Salt Lake. Now--if I can just find the time to sneak in a nap somehow.

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