This weekend hasn't been restful--today we went to SLC to hear my Mom speak. She did a nice job. But it has been a nice weekend just the same. Today was about perfect food-wise--and exercise-wise too since it's a day of rest. Dave made blueberry pancakes for breakfast, then I had a fancy lunch--tomato basil soup with a baguette brushed with olive oil with tomato and mozzarella balls and spinach drizzled with balsamic vinegar. WONDERFUL. Snack of hot chocolate and a fiber one chocolate peanutbutter bar. Dinner was meatloaf and mashed potatoes with pork and beans and veggies. I made weightwatcher chocolate truffles (45 cal and 1 pt) and had 2 with some gingersnap cookies. I've also finally got around to making the quick homemade kimchee (LOVE that spicy food) and some whole wheat bread. I can't wait to have cinnamon toast with a bowl of blueberries for breakfast. I just love luxury food.
I was wondering again this weekend what I would buy at the grocery store if neither money or health were an issue. Fun fantasy--expensive cheeses and artisan breads for sure, real butter, nuts, salamis, olives, expensive mushrooms, berries, tomatoes, chocolates, fancy crackers with interesting spreads, those fattening frozen appetizers that I never buy. I wonder what my daily calorie count would be then? I bet it was 8-10,000 a day when we went on our cruise...? Actually, though, I don't think I'd be that much of a glutton--well, maybe I would--I'd just be snacking on rich foods all day long. However, in my dream life I'd burn at least some of it off--hiking in gorgeous places, snorkeling--learning skills like archery, bowling, rowing, tai chi, sailing etc. Who knows? Maybe it would even itself out? The neat thing to think about though is that this life doesn't have to be wholly imaginary. I already do have all those goodies sometimes--I like to hike in the mountains here and I can always take a class in any sport if I really wanted to. As I look back on my life I can see how blessed I've been to do much of exactly what I dream of!
Losing weight in spite of myself.
I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
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