Today I feel encouraged. For two reasons I think. First is that I'm having pie pizzaria stuffed cheesy bread for lunch. For anyone who has not had cheesy bread from the Pie, I am sorry to say you've been living a drab and meaningless existence. Seriously, though--after nearly a year of blogging, I've come to the obvious conclusion that I'm a headonist. I like the good things in life--good food, good books, good friends, good times. When I put good food into my day like the cheesy bread, then I am much happier with my diet. This is such a "DUH" kind of a notion that I sometimes forget to do it! Opting instead, for something that's quick and on track but also not what I'm in the mood for. This cheesy bread is pretty much on track, I'm having it with a big cabbage salad and some oranges for lunch. For dinner I've made a ww chili that's really tasty, but also very low point that will help offset the cheesy bread and keep me well within points.
The other reason I'm encouraged is that this blog has shown me just how much I really eat and that I really can eat a LOT of the things I like and not always in moderation either and still lose weight!! This morning I was at 186--22 pounds down since April Fools--42 from my all time high. I'm proud of that. It's been super slow but that's ok because by and large I'm still living the food life I enjoy. If I can lose 20 lbs again this year I'll be at 166 by this time next year---gasp!!! And if it's only 10 then that's ok too--I like the look of that number as well. Anyway--starting out this New Year I'm happy because I know I'll be taking pitstops along the way. I still owe myself a lunch at the cheesecake factory for starters. This feels good--I'm literally eating my cake and still losing weight.
Losing weight in spite of myself.
I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
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