I am surprisingly stiff and tired today. I don't think I should be! I only "ran" for five minutes the day before yesterday. I wanted to run another 5 yesterday but I was derailed by the weather--which was horrible sleet, and also by visiting teaching immediately after work. My original plan was to run for 5 minutes worth of the walk home even though I was wearing the wrong clothes and would look stupid. Honestly couldn't do it, the sidewalks and roads were so slick. My hope is that mincing along on the way home was a good core and leg workout and made up for it. Today is just wet and dreary. I'm going to run 8 minutes today and I'm prepared with my i-pod and workout clothes, I'll just run up to the gym on campus after work and get it done. I'm very blessed to have a nice gym that is free for me just right there, but that doesn't stop me from whining. The gym is UPHILL. Weber State is built on the side of a mountain and everything is uphill. All the better right? Yes, but darn it. It's UPHILL. Then everything I need is on the bottom floor. I don't know why it feels so unfair to have to get to the gym before I can work out, but it does. This is one of the reasons I like walking and jogging. I step out the door and (usually) there I am! No time wasted on pesky preparation.
On to happier things. Another plug for PEHP insurance. GREAT programs!! I finally sent in a my weight verification stating that I had officially hit 187. I was about what? four months late in reaching my goal? No matter! They told me to send in the expenses for weight watchers for November and December for reimbursement. WOW. It isn't much money, but the thought that counts here. The new goal is an exciting 181 to be reached by the end of March. I can do that! I'm still impressed with the calorie count site, and am having fun with it. Still low on potassium and iron--and carbs! I'll keep trying to bring that up--I don't know what more to do! I'm eating a banana, spinach and rice today--plus lots of other healthy things, but I'll keep looking and trying to add more potassium and iron rich food to my diet. I'm hoping that by giving myself the nutrients I need, it will help me to crave less food. Also, I had leg cramps again last night. I'll go a long spell without having any and then WHAM! These seem to improve if I eat bananas another plug for potassium. The CC site is still clunky for me because I'm not used to it, but I really like how I can also plug in my activity for the day and then it will tell me if, given what I consume and what I burn if I'm runnng a deficit or not. How cool is that? Over the last three days I have been at a very modest deficit. I'll have to see how it goes---obviously my calories and activites are not going to accurate to the last calorie. I'm sure I'll have a tendency to underestimate what I eat and overestimate how much I move, but I'll try hard not to do that. The proof will be what the scale says. I'm a little worried about tomorrow's weigh in. Last week the scale finally rebelled and gave me a number I more than deserved--189. Naturally, I'm hoping this will magically fall off, but I fear it won't. No matter. Carry on!
Losing weight in spite of myself.
I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
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