Losing weight in spite of myself.

I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.



The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.

The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.

There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.

Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!







Thursday, January 5, 2012

274 oops

I could have sworn I wrote yesterday, but now that I think of it perhaps I didn't.  Yesterday was on track although I didn't go to the WW site and log it in.  Today will be close to being on track, but lunch was out of control--so even if the calories overall wind up all right, I know things really weren't all right being out of control helps no one--especially not me!  I took the day off for my cold--true I am coughing and I felt very tired this morning, but I felt much worse on Monday and didn't stay home. I couldn't sleep in much because I had to be awake to call into work then I putzed around with Dave putting away Christmas--I feel as though I've missed Christmas this year because it's been so rushed, but the mess has sure lasted. I had a light breakfast, but I was hungry for lunch. It was a weird one. 1 tortilla folded in half with cheese and grilled with plain yogurt to dip it in, any number of fiber select crackers with almost the last of the Christmas cheeseball, a handful of olives, three slices of bacon,a broiled jalapeno with cream cheese, 1 lipton cup of soup and a clementine, with a little square of chocolate for dessert. Right.  Not at all sure what was going on in my head there--probably not much.  I'm in that annoying phase where I'm really too tired to be awake, but not tired enough to be asleep.  I have the computer room almost under control and I think I'll see if I can nap on the couch.  I think I'm lonely today. Catherine is back at school and Dave is at work and the house is quiet and I'm not quite myself.  Oh well, maybe I'll feel better if the nap is successful. I'm making a lite ravioli dish tonight with snap peas and mushrooms. Getting the house in order is making me feel MUCH better and it doesn't all have to be done perfectly today. I can look forward to a nice evening with Dave and WITHOUT statistics by the fireplace.  I told Catherine I'd make her a Hawaiian quilted pillow--they had wonderful patterns at the Polynesian Cultural Center and we picked out some great fabric last week. Maybe I'll start that tonight. New projects go a long way toward curing just about anything.

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