Ack! Stupid Wildcat room. NO blue cheese crumbles and NO decent diet dressings either! Only low fat ranch. Yuck. I don't even like full cal ranch much. Proud of myself though. I fixed myself an enormous vat of salad and tried to go easy on the full cal Italian stuff. The sheer quantity of vegetables was enough to fill me up to the point where not only did I not eat the soup I brought for later but I didn't even eat the 100 cal shortbread cookies that I love.
Dinner was nice too, I forgot the fruit, but figured I'd have an orange with a brownie to look forward to after harp lesson. Wasn't particuarly hungry for either--still ate most of it though. Someday I'll be able to pass up the things I'm not hungry for/don't want but not quite yet.
I think the major drawback of planning out meals is that it makes it very difficult to listen to your body. Still, I've been overriding inner signals for so long that I'm liking having a plan for now. Hope to very slowly adjust to a more intuitive style over the next year or so.
Summary: about 2,100 cal and 14% fat. Took the day off from exercise. What did I love? The cool square salad "bowls" (seriously, I would serve a whole family out of one of these), love peas, love bacon for breakfast, really liked being full and nibbling on a very rich brownie in front of the fire as I studied--also liked having the orange slices with it. Also liked the day of physical rest because I needed it. Like having a mind and body capable of learning to play the harp. If nothing else, I have slim fingers and wrists. I don't think it would be possible to play the harp with fat fingers.
A skinny girl once said to me "it's impossible for me to be fat in the summer." She was always running around doing all kinds of sports in the summer. I feel that way about my hands--it's impossible for me to have big hands. Now to expand that feeling....
I don't anticipate any big challenges today. I felt ready to walk again after my day of rest and am walking to and from work--about a mile and a half each way going gently uphill on the way up. LOVE everything bagel thins only 110 cal. Had two for breakfast with garden veggie cream cheese. Tomorrow might be a problem though. I've been wanting to see Harry Potter 7 again, and I do love movie popcorn.
Losing weight in spite of myself.
I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
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