Yesterday went well except that the exercise just didn't happen. I didn't set foot in the door till about 6:30--made dinner as fast as I could--left at 7:15 to get Dave, didn't eat till around 8 and the phone was ringing with congratulations for Catherine all night. Oh well. The best part food-wise was the s'more. I love our gas fireplace and I love to make smore's which used to be an extremely rare summer treat. They aren't bad at all calorie/fat-wise if I make them with choc chips rather than full candy bars, which I do all the time anyway. Also, my Levi's fit easily this morning--always a happy sign!
This semester has been tough with late night eating. On Mon and Wed I have class immediately after wk for two hours, on Tues I have RS meeting at 7 and every other Thurs I have harp lesson. This is too much on top of a 8-5 job. I'm glad it won't be forever. I'm taking the summer off from school. I suppose, as with everything else, I just have to do the best I can.
Tonight we're going out to dinner! And, if weather permits, not just anywhere, but to Maddox! The BEST steak place in the world. Which brings to today's topic--rare food. I'm a little concerned---already in just barely over a week, I've had movie popcorn, tonight I'm going out, and tomorrow is the big Stake RS activity with lunch that I can't skip. That's three very high cal/fat events in a short time and I'm afraid that's not out of the ordinary in my life. So--what to do? Keep on with the blog for a start I suppose. At least now I'm aware and so might be more motivated to do something about tomorrow's lunch at least (the food probably won't be that great).
Maddox though....I'm flat out point blank unwilling to even consider trying to make good choices there. I've only been there one other time for a retirement dinner and it was one of the best dinners I've ever had. When I go tonight and look at that menu I know that whatever sounds good to me really won't just be good, but really great--AND the earliest I might go there again won't be until MAY IF we go for Catherine's graduation. There's a real chance we won't go back for years because it's very expensive. Maddox is rare food. The thinking is that I won't get it again so I'd better enjoy it as much as I can while I've got it.
I don't even WANT to improve this thinking. Eating at a place like Maddox--meaning eating whatever and how much I want--is a very real pleasure. Why would I want to give this up?
It will be interesting to see if and how my thinking changes over time. For now, at least hopefully Maddox situations will make me more aware of how important it is to make good choices whenever I possibly can. At least, in honor of the impending feast I walked to work even though there was a little snow last night.
Losing weight in spite of myself.
I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
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