Losing weight in spite of myself.

I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.



The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.

The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.

There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.

Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!







Sunday, February 20, 2011

fat beef!!!

   I made a cardinal rookie error yesterday. I'm still nervous about eating bazillions of calories, and my plan yesterday was really good with the exception of the popcorn so I ate my lunch and went to the movies as planned, but was slightly hungry.  MISTAKE to be slightly hungry in the face of movie popcorn.  All's still ok--I probably only ate 10 cups instead of the full 11.  It would have been far better to have a couple of hundred calories worth of healthier snacks and THEN face the popcorn.  Next time.
   Today (Sunday) surprises me. There are a few high fat items on the menu--but not anything obviously terrible.  To wit: Scones, roast beef and cheddar biscuits.  YIKES!!  Those things put the fat totals back up almost to movie popcorn day levels at about 30%.  This and yesterday are what the book calls "B" days.  I still cherish some hope for fat loss because it's still a whole heck of a lot better than I eat when left to my own devices. I'm convinced my previous fat intakes had to be around 50-70%
    I'm hoping to mitigate today's damage with exercise--I should have walked for 50 min yesterday, but didn't find the time (or desire in the face of seriously damp and gloomy weather) so promised myself an hour of wii exercise today.  Last night it snowed so hard they actually canceled church!  I did my wii, shoveled the driveway and am now going out to make a mighty snow creation.
     Tomorrow is Presidents day.  The challenge here is incorporate a cherry pie into my life without blowing the fat limits---I forsee a lot of veggies. 

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