So I did fine yesterday. My body is reacting by settling in at the new "low"--meaning the goal I hit last week, but not budging below that which is annoying, but whatever.
What I mean by the goal being far away is that when I finished dinner last night (so yummy). I was just barely beginning to get full. There is no way left to myself that I would not have eaten more. A LOT more, and still considered myself as being conservative. And yet, an hour later I felt ok. And after having some diet hot chocolate and 4 chocolate almonds I really was fine.
I know all about the "it takes 20 minutes for the stomach to register that you're full" and I'm already the world's slowest eater, but stopping is still incredibly hard for me. I can't even imagine stopping naturally. Maybe the custom of having coffee after dinner is about helping people to stop eating. I don't drink coffee or tea. The hot chocolate is helping.
Anyway. Today's challenge is having my nephew up for the night. I've promised him pizza and that we would make his favorite treat. Here's the original plan--have about 700 calories for breakfast and lunch and 1000 calories of pizza. I don't know what kind of pizza we're getting or what kind of a treat he will want. Here's what I can live with:
Breakfast: Oatmeal with blueberries
Lunch: a huge salad with chicken and 100 calories of cheese. Dang it! I forgot the Ken's light Italian Dressing. The lightest dressing package around here has 140 cal. Oh well. (I think the two meals will still total around 700 cal)
Dinner: 2 slices pizza, either one cookie or very small part of dessert, another salad or a fruit if I want to.
Possible change of plans!!
This weekend is just not working out as far as having my poor nephew over! There's a funeral tomorrow--we planned around that. There's going to be a gigantic snowstorm--ummmmm--we can take the train? Now my visiting teachee has had her appendix burst. I want to go to the hospital to see her tonight. I don't want to let my nephew down and it's super important that I don't, but this weekend is simply not working well.
Whether he comes or not though, I think I'll stick with the plan.
Losing weight in spite of myself.
I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
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