Losing weight in spite of myself.

I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.



The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.

The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.

There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.

Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!







Sunday, January 26, 2014

Hungry girl and ice-cream

I LOVE Hungry Girl!!  I made her buffalo wings yesterday and she got it right!!!!  I've been in quest for good healthy wings for years, and she got it right!!!!  Super easy receipe too--easy to google.  The wings look a little different than my beloved chili's wings, but the taste is perfect.  I also made her jalapeno poppers--also very good, those are a little more effort, so I might not always bother, but yesterday's lunch was fantastic.  I had--A double portion of chicken wings with blue cheese crumbles on the side. Two large jalapeno poppers, carrots and celery, a string cheese, 5 olives and a bagel with laughing cow cheese. Worked out to be about 700 cal--but it was A LOT of food. After that all I really wanted was something sweet. Catherine had made a delicious taco soup and I fully intended to eat it for dinner, but I also wanted to go on a much needed date with my sweet husband.  He wanted to head for the darling old-fashioned ice-cream shop down the street. I could have made better choices there, but it was about 5 o'clock already and I still was full so I said, "what the heck" I'm going to eat dessert first--or in this case, just dessert.  No idea how many calories my single scoop (pralines and cream) hotfudge brownie sundae had, I just hope it was 900 or less.  It was great and I loved our date, but I made a discovery.

Cranky daughter with a cold plus a dinner of just sugar makes for a very irritable me.  I wasn't sure how to grade the day--but truly, having that ice-cream with my husband was important.  Today has it's own difficulties which I'll talk about tomorrow, but nothing terrible, and the rest of this week should be right on track. Exercise was very good yesterday.

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