Losing weight in spite of myself.

I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.



The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.

The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.

There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.

Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!







Saturday, January 18, 2014

Buffets

The Pizza Pie Cafe is a super cute restaraunt.  Not quite as good as Cici's I think---too much crust and the blue cheese dressing not as thick, but worth going back to every blue moon or so. Actually, I'm really proud of us.  Buffets are one thing that we've almost cut out completely.  We've never been to the Chuck-a-rama down the street, and I don't even know where the Chinese buffets are.  I thoroughly enjoyed the Pizza Pie and ate until I felt done with no worries at all.  Today, I wish my tops were looser, but mostly, I'm ok with that.  I want to be thinner, but not at the expense of a life that I want to live--and that life includes the occasional (truly occasional) pizza buffet.

One thing various blogs remind me of is that I NEVER want to get to my ideal weight only to discover that I don't like the lifestyle that will keep me at that weight.  Maybe that's rationalization, but given the spectacular failure rate of diets, I don't think so.  I might be stuck, but at least I'm not going in the wrong direction.

This week will be interesting.  Three flavor point days! That makes up for this week that had none.  I'm excited for them. Actually, I think the trickiest day this week will be tomorrow--a "high protein" no sugar day. It's Sunday, and we always enjoy playing games and having dessert. I've decided to deal with it by making these high protein snack balls that have been making the rounds on facebook.  They contain honey and some chocolate chips, but the focus is the high protein peanut butter and oatmeal.  It will give me something to munch on.  I'm calling it close enough.

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