Losing weight in spite of myself.

I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.



The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.

The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.

There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.

Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!







Thursday, December 29, 2011

268 sneeze and another half

Ugh! Coming down with a cold. Whether from being trapped in an airplane breathing viruses or just from pure bad eating I don't know--probably both.  But I'm not completely dying. I'm still walking to work and am SLOWLY returning back to normal eating, but phew---there's a long way to go.  For breakfast today I had a PB2 banana, milk, and a lite bagel with veggie cream cheese--far better than these past two weeks, but still above ww limits. Lunch was 3/4 can of tomato basil soup and too many crackers with cheeseball and 6 olives. Snacking is clementines. Ooops--and also 4 cookies.  ah well. New Year's Day is coming--or rather the day after--no way I'm dieting on Jan 1. Jan 2 yes, but Jan 1 no way.  One thing will be easier this semester is the strength training. Thanks to my work's wellness program I can take time off during work for fitness.  Last year I did the walking group for the half marathon. This semester I'm not taking a class so I can't do the walking group, but I CAN and did schedule time for myself to go to the gym and get the strength training done.  I'm excited about this!!
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