Losing weight in spite of myself.

I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.



The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.

The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.

There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.

Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!







Wednesday, May 7, 2014

Still full

Wow. Either I'm getting old, or I overdid it more than I thought I did. We got home late Sunday night--it's Wednesday and I'm STILL not hungry and not quite digesting normally. I ate nothing on Monday until dinnertime (amazing that I still had to really think out that I didn't want lunch even though I actually had a stomach ache!), yesterday was NO problem with 1500 cal--I ate because I thought I should have a little something, rather than because I was hungry. Today is Spinach Day---again, still not hungry, but not feeling sick, so I'm eating for energy and because I like the act of eating. But, wow! three days later and still not digesting? I will try to do a little better in NYC--overeating is one thing, but I have no wish to eat so much that I'm immediately sick.

Exercise is back on. I took Sunday (driving home) and Monday off to recover from the trip. Yesterday was kind of funny, I didn't do all that much unusual, but I ran out of steam at 9:25--just like an energizer bunny with dead batteries. It was a full evening---I walked to and from work, mowed the lawn, visited a friend, fixed dinner, ate dinner, went downstairs to practice harp and ride the bike for 1/2 hour so I could have a slice of bread with lunch today. That's how I know I ran out of steam--I had 5 min left on the bike. I did finish, then fixed today's food, showered and collapsed.

Today is a rainy day, so the evening won't be so busy. I'll still walk to and from work, and I did some walking for wellness despite the rain. Walking is slow because I'm still stiff and sore, but I'm hoping that by immediately getting back on track that the Disneyland damage won't be too severe.

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