Yesterday was a happy day--largely due to the happy thoughts from yesterday's post. I kept thinking of all the reason that I hadn't gained all the weight back and why the weight that I have gained back came on so slowly. There were just too many days where I worked out--sometimes I lifted weights, sometimes I played on the treadmill or rowing machines, there were days where I walked the 5K--too much of that stuff! Then there were more meals than I could handle that were veggie based, or even featured fish. I sometimes counted my calories--too much of that!!!
I LOVE it!!! This is the first time EVER that I've really felt that anything healthy I try to do makes any difference! It DOES make a difference. Even without weight loss it still makes a difference! Yesterday's plan went great--1500 cal (that's still way low for me) AND I accumulated 300 exercise calories!! I'll use 100 of those tomorrow with my flavor point day. It's hard for me to eat lightly, but it's made much easier now that I feel as though it's doing some good. And honestly, even on 1500 cal, the food isn't that scarce. It's a testament to how over indulgent I am that I feel the following menu is difficult.
Breakfast--pumpkin chocolate chip muffin, banana, milk
Snack--string cheese rolled in 3 slices of ham
Lunch--homemade bread with 3 more slices of ham, tomato, red onion and spinach, a big handful (24) potato chips and 2 tbls onion chip dip, and a pickle.
Dinner--leftover steak and blue cheese (3 oz), 2 med potatoes with fat free sourcream, and a cabbage salad with lite dressing and a few blue cheese crumbles.
Later--25 cal hot chocolate with light whipped cream
Today is even easier---pancakes for breakfast, a 500 cal lunch and dinner till I'm full PLUS a piece of the best key lime pie in the world. It's Sunday and sleeting outside so I don't know that I'll get any exercise points, but that's ok--it's the Sabbath.
Losing weight in spite of myself.
I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
No comments:
Post a Comment