Losing weight in spite of myself.

I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.



The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.

The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.

There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.

Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!







Wednesday, December 4, 2013

Banana muffins

The buffet was a little smaller than last year, I didn't think I overindulged that much, but I guess I did. I was sleepy and sugar-stupified for most of the day. I didn't want any dinner either. At about 8, I decided that I probably should have something, especially since today is a flavor-point day and I didn't want to come into it overfed. I did all right. Just leftovers, I thought about having two leftover turkey burger patties, but realized that I wasn't really hungry and so just had one with a little cheese and buffalo sauce. I was pleased that even on a "free" day, something made me stop and think just a little bit. 

Today, is Flavor Point day 41. As usual, it takes a whole lot of cooking and planning, but the recipes are great. Flavor Point believes in healthy oils and it makes all the difference--not only taste and satisfaction wise, but feeling overall healthy too.  Anyway, breakfast was 2 banana chocolate chip muffins, and they are really good!  Usually baked stuff made with whole wheat is marginal, but these were great.  Lunch was very simple, but again, super tasty.  Black beans, corn, and tomatoes mixed with oil, balsamic vinegar and cumin, served on a big bed of fresh spinach and a whole wheat english muffin on the side.  I'd like some chocolate to finish it off, but I'll survive.

Later there will be a snack of baked chips and salsa. 
Dinner is not a thrill---tilapia and asparagus. But also oven-fries With oven fries, I can face a good deal. "Dessert" if I want it, will be an apple with a little lemon. That's good practice for me. Although fruits are sweet, I've never really bought the idea of a fruit as a suitable dessert.  That is a good barrier to break.  
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