I did great yesterday!! Got in the double exercise, finished the draft of the grant proposal for the NYC conference, practiced the harp, got to the cooking store to buy yeast, and the health food store to buy weird "fettucini shaped" tofu noodles for a reciepe later this week. I also cooked up a batch of tortilla chips and made cheese dip (I've been wanting more ever since that work party)--I get extra good girl points for that--since it was a "no salt" day that means I didn't get to sample the chips. No matter--I thought today was a free day and I could have as much as I wanted. Then Catherine asked me why I'd scheduled a Free day on a Fast Sunday?
IT'S FAST SUNDAY!!! ACCCKKK!!! I totally forgot about that!!! In my church (Mormon), the first Sunday of every month is Fast Sunday. It's a wonderful day of deep prayer and a small sacrifice in the form of fasting. All those who are physically able go without food or water for two meals and the money that would normally go toward the food is instead donated to those in need. Going without food for two meals usually isn't that big of a deal and the blessings are huge. Plus, dinner always tastes extra good on Fast Sunday. But I wasn't prepared for it today! Plus! It's Super Bowl Sunday! Not that this makes any real difference--we're not football fans, but I bet many LDS people will choose to fast next week instead of today. I considered putting it off until next week too, but decided that I didn't want to do that. It's really the chips and dip that are sacrifice today. I've rearranged everything and it will actually be a much easier week. Today I made a calorie count day--but I don't feel as though I really need to count. I doubt the meatloaf and apple pie will come anywhere close to 2000 cal. Besides, breaking the fast isn't supposed to be about giant gluttonous feasting. That's out of keeping with the spirit of the fast.
SO! The flavor point day will be Tuesday instead of tomorrow. I want those chips and dip! And Wednesday will be the free day--a good choice because I've got a huge event at work and I'll be ready to relax and not cook--we're going to take Catherine to the Pizza Pie Cafe.
Losing weight in spite of myself.
I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
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