I did great yesterday at 1700 cal. I'm having a MUCH MUCH easier time passing up the goodies that are around the office. Yesterday my boss brought in big blueberry scones. Yum!! But calorie deadly. It actually wasn't a big deal!!! The thoughts that were automatically in the FRONT of my mind were--that 1. I could have a little if I wanted to spend the calories on them. 2. I actually prefer chocolate. 3. I could wrap up a piece and save it for tomorrow. This is exciting! Usually, I have to dredge these types of thoughts up laboriously from the deeps of my soul. In the end I just didn't think about them that much, and when later that afternoon, I saw that they were all gone I didn't really care. And I was additionally rewarded later last night in several ways---I sat my kiester in a chair for an hour and worked on the dreaded proposal, and felt really good about that, Catherine WAS re-accepted to BYU so we all feel great about that! She made our famous brownies to celebrate. And I had enough calories left to enjoy a piece. I was proud of myself on that score too. I did NOT cut my own piece. Instead, I told C to bring me a small piece. And that worked fine. The reason all of this worked fine is that I knew that today was a "not counting, but in control" day. That means I can have more today. Next week will bring more days, some more challenging than others, but an "easier" day is always nearby. It makes all the difference.
#4---I didn't think of this yesterday, but I am now. I could have wrapped up a huge piece of scone yesterday and saved if for my next free day. It's a thought!
Sometimes I think my clothes are a little looser, then I put on something else and think that everything is still the same. Doesn't matter. (well, yes it does) For the first time ever, my MIND is happy with the program. For the first time I'm not working against myself. I want things to move much faster, because impatience is part of my character, but this is the right thing.
Losing weight in spite of myself.
I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
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