What a difference a day can make! Dave brought me flowers, but the day continued to be annoying. One annoying thing that worked out much to my benefit was trying to turn in that grant application. I couldn't find where to turn it in, so I went to the place where the department was housed--the Miller building at the bottom of campus, next door to my building. Nope. I had to turn it in to the committee chair who works in...drum roll....FACILITIES MANAGEMENT! Are you kidding??? FM is is at the extreme opposite end of campus well above the stadium!! Weber State is built on a mountainside--it gives real meaning to the phrase, "it's up there." There was nothing for it but to take a deep breath and dash up the mountain as fast as I could. I made it in time, but without the letter from my supervisor, I had to hope that she'd get it to me and that they'd let me add it to the packet. This was all definitely the 1/2 hour of exercise I had missed on wellness time.
Bless her heart--she gave it to me first thing this morning. I made the mandatory 17 copies (not kidding, don't ask), and went charging back up the hill. I made it---my stuff was still in his in-box, so I slipped in the letters. Phew, in every sense of the word.
Meanwhile, food was pretty good yesterday--pecan day is one of the better flavor point days. I really liked the chicken. Today is 1700 and I'm struggling a bit--but I had a poptart for breakfast and that atones for a lot. The problem today is the actual counting--I guesstimated that my lunch (enchilada and corn) was about 500 cal. Okay. Well, it's gradfest and they gave us all $5 lunch vouchers and it's taco tuesday. People have been raving about the street tacos for ages. I got two and some beans and I'm guessing it's about 600 cal? Not impressed with the tacos. They were plentiful enough and with the beans they should have been filling, but I'm not really full today. I still have 1/2 a muffin and some celery to nibble on, but I'm at work till 6 and am going straight to a meeting after that. Dinner is also a little hard to estimate--himmel and erde--potatoes, turkey sausage, apples and onions. Very healthy and filling, but difficult to dish out exactly 1/5 of the pan or whatever. Oh well, my best will have to do. I'm proud of myself for saying no to all the goodies that are all around me today. I'm also hoping to put in another 40 min of exercise. I need to collect calories---our book club will be meeting soon, and there's going to be office treats (not a full blown pot luck thank goodness), for the April birthdays and Catherine's graduation, all of which are going to involve food that I don't want to say no to. Not to mention Friday night pizza nights. I'm going to need to work hard!
Losing weight in spite of myself.
I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
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