Losing weight in spite of myself.

I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.



The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.

The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.

There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.

Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!







Friday, April 4, 2014

A little bit down

YAY!!! 3 pounds down so far and I don't think it's all water weight either. When I weighed last week at 204 I'm not at all sure my body was finished packing on the pounds from the previous two week orgy so I'm quite pleased with 201 (or as pleased as anyone can be with such a weight).  the working out is really helping.

Glad ice-cream diet day is over. Actually, I did pretty well, but I gave myself a silver star--there was just a bit too much nibbling I think. I didn't get to eat the ice-cream early as planned darn it. I was derailed in this and also my harp practicing, by a free magic show at the library.  I love magic, so I saw that, went to harp and didn't get my ice-cream till after 9:00.  Someday, when I really learn how to eat within reason, life will be so much nicer.  At the library they had crackers and cheese. I'll take crackers and cheese over ice-cream any day. Even last night I realized that I could have had those instead of the ice-cream, but I'd been thinking ice-cream all week and by that time I was determined.

Today is 1800 cal. Plus earning calories for pizza tonight. :) It will be interesting to see if I think the pizza will be worth the work.  I walked to work (doesn't count), Did 1/2 hour of rowing (that's for weight loss) and walked 15 min. Later, I'll walk another 15 min (that's 1/2 for extra calories). After work, rather than walking home, I'm going to walk up the hill to the 36th street trail head and continue walking until 45 min have passed, then I'll turn around and walk back to the office (for another 1 1/2 hours of earned calories) and walk home (doesn't count).  That gets me home at 6:30 with TWO hours of earned calories. That's 600 extra calories to use on pizza.

Lastly, I love this image from Fitness Nerd

hedge maze

He says, and I can't agree more, that weight loss is less like a straight journey, even one with bumps and hills, and much more like a labryinth. YES!! Lot's of dead ends and things that don't work.
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