I tried. I wanted to go out to eat if we went all the way to slc for the reception, so I looked up Zupas and found that the turkey bacon panini wasn't very many calories. I had a harder time with the soup--my favorite is the wisconsin cheddar. I couldn't find this exact soup online, but I was delight to see that other cream of broccoli or cheese soups were only 220 cal. Really? I was starved so I didn't question it. We got to Zupas, and I have never seen soup that thick in all my life. It was more the consistency of oatmeal than soup. No way that a Zupa-sized bowl of that was 220. However, I was too hungry to be rational and the internet DID say it was 220, so I ate that soup (and sandwich, and side of bread and strawberry---all accounted for assuming the soup was 220). It felt good. I also behaved myself very well at the reception. They had two of my favorite weaknesses--crackers and cheese, and really good cookies. I had a little fruit,and only 2 crackers with 2 small slices of cheese. Even though the soup was probably 1000 cal all on it's own--I gave myself a red star for the day.
Today is worse. Breakfast on track. Lunch problematic. We went to Javiers for an after recital lunch. I got something off the lunch menu and tried to take it easy on the chips. Tonight is pizza. I give up. I will try to be fairly moderate, and I will also do my best to earn calories for tomorrow.
I feel a little better about my efforts after yesterdays reception. My dear friend, who we went to see, has put on quite a bit of weight. She's still darling. I weigh exactly the same as I did 24 years ago when we left Japan. This isn't that great, because I weighed too much back then, and still weigh too much now, but I could have added a whole bunch of middle-age spread and I haven't!
Losing weight in spite of myself.
I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
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