Losing weight in spite of myself.

I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.



The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.

The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.

There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.

Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!







Thursday, January 9, 2014

Quinoa

Super healthy dinner yesterday.  I made a sort of sweetpotato nachos.  I sliced up sweetpotatos and baked them, then on top we put quinoa, black beans, corn, cheese, tomatoes, onions and chopped poblano peppers and sour cream.  I have it for lunch again today.  A do again receipe I think.  I've never been overly fond of rice. So things like quinoa and bulger wheat are great substitutes.

Still wanting miracles. I'm wearing my Hong Kong Disneyland shirt under my sweater today and it's as tight if not tighter than it was last summer. This just takes awhile. I'll be furious if I don't lose any weight by April, but at least I'll be healthier.

today is my first attempt at "small meals" It's fun--a little silly. Catherine points out that it probably means 6 small meals a day--not eating every hour. I now myself. If I try to eat 6 meals a day it will BE six meals and I'm sure they will grow.  I'm not exactly eating every hour, but I'm trying to put at least an hour in between eating things.  At home I had some orange juice and bacon. About two hours later I had a banana, an hour after that I had a lite bagel.  That's breakfast. I'll probably munch on some carrots soon.  So far, so good. There's something to be said for spreading things out. I certainly like the concept of eating all day long. :)  I need to find some other blogs. I'm lonely out here.

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