Day 34 on Flavor Point today---I seem to have a gift for picking out the fish days, what's up with that? I hope C is a sweetheart and fixes dinner b/c I want to go to the storytelling festival tonight and I don't have time to cook AND eat and get there on time. Successfully dodged a food bullet at work, they ordered a bunch of stuff for a meeting that was for tomorrow, not today, so there were all kinds of delicious looking salads. I ate my own salad which was also delicious---just not as yummy looking as the others.
Feeling a bit better about myself today. Got my haircut on Sat---badly needed. And I'm thinking that I simply HAVE to be healthier--no matter what the scale and mirror say. There is so much junk out there that I would have eaten, but haven't because I'm working on this program. I AM struggling with exercise--I mean real, sweatfilled exercise. The excuse is my knees. They really have been hurting which is a new and unpleasant development. But there is still the exercise bike and swimming AND---going to the doctor for shots and stuff, so there really isn't an excuse. But my breathing has been off too----well, maybe it's just boredom. I really hate the treadmill when I can't read or listen to an audio book or something. I think I can solve these problems. What about my ideas for alternative exercise? Still there--I'm just feeling super rickety lately.
Thanks to 300poundsdown I found nerdfit. Really fun website--the writer definitely has the rebel attitude down fine. He's pro Paleo-diet, which I'm not a huge fan of, but he embraces all sensible plans to try and eat well and has some great exercise ideas. Best thing about the site is that he doesn't accept excuses. Instead, he gives all kinds of practical suggestions to overcome the excuses. Eventually, he does want you to pay up a bit of money to get his fitness program, but there is an awful lot of good info he gives out for free. I'm a little overwhelmed. I'll be visiting the site from time to time and I signed up for the free blog. I love people who are out there helping out.
Lastly, I'm very grateful that I don't feel compelled to try the "Werewolf" diet. It's basically fasting on the full moon and eating sensibly at other times. Whatever! There is no shortage of weirdness out there!
Losing weight in spite of myself.
I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
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