BEST food in the world is bread and cheese. I managed to live through yesterdays flavor point day. Today is 1800 cal plus I have extra calories saved. I had Catherine make some more pretzel bread and for breakfast I had 2 rolls with cheese---2 ounces is really quite a lot of cheese. Plus a bowl of blueberries and milk. Perfect. Tasting anyway.
Tonight Catherine has to work which is unfortunate, because I'm making a fodmap free pizza. To see if it will help her gastro problems at all. The fodmap diet is crazy restrictive. Especially hard is no onions or garlic. EVERYTHING I cook has onions and garlic. I'm hoping she's not so sensitive that even a little will bother her. I'm hoping that by moving in the right direction she'll start feeling better, even if things aren't perfect. fodmap is NOT low-cal. For example, she can't eat soft cheeses like mozzarella, but she can eat cheddar. I'll make her half cheddar and mine mozzarella. It will be good for me to practice fodmap for her because it will help me learn--daily--that food is there to energize us and make us feel good. I admire Holly (from 300poundsdown) and others who really have no choice but to severely limit what they can eat. Given the amount of whining I do for just cutting back a little, I'd hate to think what my psyche would do if I were given a blanket restriction against bread or sugar or milk or something like that. I like to think that heaven contains a big banquet of everything for these people.
Meanwhile, I'm preparing for next week's challenge. I have a conference in Jackson Hole. That means conference buffets, and at least one really good Mexican restaurant. The good news is that I'm attending with normal weight people. I'm going to do what I did on my mission and simply copy what they eat. That should ensure that I don't go completely crazy. Maybe.
Losing weight in spite of myself.
I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
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