OKAY!! I had a wonderful Thanksgiving break. The less said about the food, the better. Friday scared me a little as it was one of the very few times in my life that I ate myself into a slight stomachache. Saturday, still full, I downed a fancy burger at a new place downtown and later followed it up with pizza. Yesterday, was the day I decided to start being a little more reasonable. I wasn't quite prepared to count calories--too drastic, tomorrow is the institute luncheon, Friday is Dave's dept dinner. But other things can be fine. Yesterday was still probably way more than I should have had but it was at least normal-ish.
Breakfast--one pancake, milk, fruit
Lunch--the other slice of pizza (huge thin crust slice from Lucky Slice), some jalapeno nuggets, olives, the crust of Dave's cheesecake
Dinner---early--because we thought we were going to SLC. I was still full. I had a smallish portion of turkey tetrazzini, and a small portion of carrot souffle and yams. NOTHING in that dinner was remotely healthy. The turkey tet had heavy cream and cheese, carrots are a full blown dessert and the yams are marginal.
Dessert--a real piece of the salted caramel cheesecake--and yes, that is every bit as delicious as it sounds.
Today is the last day of my night class, hallelujah!! And again, the goal is to be somewhat normal.
Breakfast--cream of wheat with fruit, 2 slices bacon, a little milk and oj
snack--a few oyster crackers
Lunch--two openface turkey sandwiches on omi bread, cup o soup, an apple and a handful of oyster crackers. The crackers are drenched in oil then baked. Terrific. At least I only make them once a year if that's an excuse.
Dinner-I brought a reasonable sized serving of Turkey tettrazini, and some cabbage salad. There might be last night desserts at my class.
Also, I walked to work today. My leg is still bad. I'm wondering if it really was my knee that slipped out. I'll wait and see how I do after the kettlebell class is over.
Will probably really start trying next week, but obviously December is full of problems that I'm not interested in solving. Catherine's birthday, our work potluck, my bookclub lunch buffet, our work Christmas breakfast, the ward dinner, and of course, Christmas itself. Even still though, I can at least try on days where nothing is going on and also during the other meals on difficult days. Also, now that my leg is at least somewhat better, I can exercise too.
Losing weight in spite of myself.
I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
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