Losing weight in spite of myself.

I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.



The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.

The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.

There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.

Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!







Monday, November 4, 2013

So far, so fun

Ok!  I liked picking the slips out of the envelope--it felt good to be able to switch one of the days around to accomodate what was going on in my life.  So Saturday was a "not counting but in control" day--and I did just fine.  I tried some Hungry Girl nachos for lunch--super good.  And went to JB's for dinner because we were in salt lake---super mediocre food and I didn't eat most of it, although I did put blue cheese dressing and bacon on my salad. Was VERY sparing on sweets all day.  Sunday was fast Sunday---ate way too much of Catherine's loaded brownies, but since it was fast Sunday would still be well within a normal calorie range.  Today is 2100 calories---doing fine here too--looking forward to an interesting dinner---not low cal, but within range.  Tomorrow is "low carb no salt."  Okay---I've been looking up low carb stuff. This means bacon and eggs for breakfast!  Also a big spinach salad, some blueberries for a snack, also some nuts for a snack---oh crud! no salt. That means yummy lime and chili flavored nuts are out.  Oh well. Cheese is in, and that makes up for a good deal. In fact, I feel so good about what I'm doing that I might even break down and have a piece of the tilapia that's in the freezer. I"m not wild about tilapia, but it's good for me, and since I don't "have" to eat it, I feel better about it.
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