Still holding steady weight-wise. Not surprising. One really good day (yesterday) isn't going to undo days and days of damage. One thing I love is that the road is always always always right before me. I've planned a very good day today--walked to work and will do strength training after work too. It's tempting to be frustrated and think, "UGH! If I'd only held on and not fallen to all those temptations, I'd be so much farther on!!!" But you know---maybe I wouldn't be. I'd weigh less for sure, but would I be able to maintain a weight loss that was based on nail-biting will power alone?
One thing I know about myself is that my interest in anything ebbs and flows. I went through about a six month blah period with the harp where I did no more than go through the motions. My progress in that time was minimal--but it WAS progress. I didn't quit and I didn't go backward. Now I'm a little more excited again. Controlling food is different--it's blah almost all the time even on a good day! I don't like to control what I eat! Although, even as I type that I realize that it isn't quite true anymore. Sure, I enjoy eating whatever and whenever I want, but I really like knowing that what I'm eating is good for my body! I like knowing that I'm not overburdening my systems with garbage. And I take pleasure in the good food I get to eat while I'm doing it. Today for example:
Breakfast:
1/2 cup cottage cheese
a chocolate chip pumpkin muffin.
milk
diet juice
Lunch:
Lipton cup o soup
four wasa crisp crakers
2 laughing cow cheeses
tomato salad
banana
pumpkin chocolate chip muffin
Dinner
1/3 pan of gyro meat
tziki sauce with 1/4 cup of feta
tomatoes
2 slices hommade french bread
veggies.
Not a bad menu if I do say so myself. As always, I wish it could be more, but it's enough. I know it's enough because my body feels healthy and strong. It's only my mind and addictive habits that want more feta cheese and to nibble all day long. Maybe someday soon I'll plan a nibble day. No meals, just all day grazing.
Anyway--I'v been treading weight-loss water, I don't know if I'll hit the target by the end of the month. I hope so, but if I don't I'll simply set a new target and keep on going.
Losing weight in spite of myself.
I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
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