Overcast day and chilly--perfect for a hike up waterfall canyon. It's about an hour straight uphill. Catherine went with us this time--her first time to see the falls (it's only my second). I'm proud of all of us. I think it was a little easier for me to get to the top this time than it was last time. I didn't track very well today--breakfast was right on, I had a 3 pt granola bar at the falls, and then a 6 inch roast beef from Subway. So far, so good. I also had some pizza Doritos (not the greatest) and I forgot to bring home the package to figure out the points. But I wasn't worrying. I had 19 weekly points left, plus all the activity points, plus a major hike. Tonight I hope, is the last of the "exceptions" for a least a week (other than Easter). We went to the Timbermine again. I actually pre-ordered the veggies, but I don't know that it made much of a difference in the overall health of the meal. They tasted awfully good, and I suspect were cooked with something high point. I wound up with the best dinner in the room. Dave traded me some of his steak for some of my veggies. So I wound up with a really full plate while everyone else just had an entree and a baked potato. The cheesecake really hit the spot. So, no idea on the points there either, but was at least somewhat prepared. Tomorrow is Easter. Happily, not a huge food holiday for me. I think what I'll do is just make a point not to mindlessly graze. Eat the candy I want (hopefully within reason) and write it down. One candy bar is worth about 7 points---so even if I eat 3 bars worth I will still have plenty for the week and I don't intend to eat anything like that much--but I will write to make sure.
I am reminded of an unhappy fact tonight---"splurging" doesn't satisfy temptation. It actually weakens it. It seems reasonable to think that if I just have what I'm really craving then that the craving will be satisfied. Nope. We've been making rice krispy eggs. Yesterday when I was on track I had no trouble not nibbling. Tonight--I both wanted more chocolate and stuff and also found it very difficult not to graze .
Losing weight in spite of myself.
I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
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