Yesterday went surprisingly well. I wasn't particularly hungry at any point of the day and didn't even eat all that I had allotted myself--but still ate a good 2,300 cal. Since I didn't eat the lean b-fast pocket for a snack, I thought I might treat myself to a smore after my RS meeting. I didn't even want it. VERY ODD for me. It is possible that the lack of appetite was due to a poor night's sleep and being tired is one of the things that will kill my appetite. Usually though the level of tired I had triggers sugar cravings. So I will consider this a possible sign of success! Also experiencing some digestive changes--can't decide if these are good, bad or random.
Today we're celebrating our family 'Pancake Day'. Dave loves pancakes and fixes them for us every Sunday morning. We tease him about his obsession. Last year Catherine discovered there really was such a thing as Pancake Day. So I wrote an anthem (set to the tune of Weasel Stomping Day by Weird Al)--so you can imagine the quality.
This year we discovered that Pancake Day isn't necessarily on Feb 23 or 24 but on Shrove Tuesday which of course, is connected to Easter and changes. Ooops. Oh well. We had plans so we're celebrating anyway with pancakes on a stick for breakfast and blackberry pancakes for dinner. I'm not really a huge pancake fan, but it is really nice that pancake day isn't blowing my eating plan. On the contrary---the day planned out easily at 17% but it'll be bumped up to 20% because I'm hooked on those flavored almonds--lime and chili especially. Those are a healthy choice but they are nearly 100% fat. I'd never tried pancakes on a stick---you can find them in the frozen aisle. Hardly a heath food. They're the size and shape of corndogs. It felt very non-diet to have two of them for breakfast with syrup. I love it when things feel non-diety.
Losing weight in spite of myself.
I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
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